Foolish, Aching, and Mess

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When I listen to this music, I’m transported back to Chicago. Michigan Ave., Millennium Park, the Museum, walking in blizzard, waiting in wind chill, loneliness, dreams, art school…

I could not find the justification for paying so much money for art education and the usefulness of artists in society. Yet i so desperately wanted to be a part of the world as an artist and my heart ached when the world seemed indifferent.

Had I heard this song in my Chicago years, I would have been proud of myself and proud of the things I thought meaningless and foolish.

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Foolish, Aching, and Mess

Sing Street

Who didn’t dream about becoming a rockstar, meeting that dream girl, and perhaps venture out to the horizon? Well, here is a story of someone who not only dreamed about, but also acted on all the things he dreamed of. There is so much energy and fire in this movie. It’s like…I want to get out and do something. Something that’s entirely me and mine, not somebody else’s. Even just for once.

Rock n Roll is a risk. You risk being ridiculed.

Sing Street

07.12.

Children are so good at finding fun in every little thing. How can they be so completely happy! They are all born with such innate ability. It’s funny how people educate themselves to become serious and go to great lengths to entertain themselves. 

07.12.

1999

This used to be my favorite song. She has something special and it was what I exactly wanted in my youth: being able to express my inner most self. I never got it. She brought me back what I thought I would never get back. Beautiful. 

1999

2015

I finally come to term with myself…leaving behind all the dreams I ceased to pursue. There was always a sense of interim whenever I think about the things that I dreamed about. I always felt I had to go back and finish what I started. All the more I felt lost and misplaced. But life allows only a handful of complete freedom, and in hindsight, I was granted with that rare though brief lightness of being. I was young and reckless. I was free to do what my heart desired. Regardless of what came out of it, that in itself has a meaning. I lived it. No single drop of regret remains. I finally come to term with myself. It is okay to let go and dream something new.

2015